Jobs, Hypnotherapy, Selling shit, ADD, Getting Tidy!

Jobs, Hypnotherapy, ADD, Selling Shit, Getting Tidy.

(photo: yes, I sold the dress.)

Jobs:

Here's the latest job I won't be applying for:

You’re passionate about growing both internal and external relationships and keen to be a part of a team delivering great customer solutions!

Rentokil Initial | Manukau City |

If you are a New Zealand woman you will be aware that Rentokil are a company that supplies public toilets with little bins for 'feminine hygiene' disposables. I daresay there will be someone out there who is passionate about internal and external relationships when it comes to soggy tampons and sanitary napkins, but baby, that aint me.

I did apply for another journalism jobbie, only it's entry level and I don't know that theatre reviews and my idea of a witty application letter are quite what they're looking for. I personally think mentioning that I'm not too irritating is quite a good thing, but not everyone would necessarily see it that way. At least I amuse myself, I'm productive that way.

Speaking of jobs, Andrew came over yesterday and we went to the hotpools. He's also gainfully unemployed, so we enjoyed a good soak out at Palm Springs (Parakai). Such an adventure was possible due to the glory of Selling Shit. The part time work I had fell through, but fortunately I didn't get upset, I just feel lucky that I had the extra work even for a short time.

Fortunately I keep selling one or two things a week; a pair of fine cream leather gloves here, a Ben Elton book there. I don't think I'll have much luck selling Ben's offering, there are about four other listings for the same over-sized paperback book - a dark post-apocalyptic nightmare that totally bummed me out.

I don't know about selling my old Ken and Barbie Dolls. Might photograph them having an orgy, might get more mileage out of it. Maybe I could list the photos as art?

Last week I had another hypnotherapy session with Caroline Cranshaw. It was pretty amazing actually. I went with the aim of working on my inability to have a somewhat normal level of order in my bedroom. This meant dealing with old grief and increasing self-respect; something that looked quite superficial ended up being a catalyst to heal deep wounds. In addition to this, she recommended that I talk to a specialist about Attention Deficit Disorder. I didn't take it seriously when she first said it, sort of "oh ha ha ha, I'm ADD!". She said she has met a lot of people in her line of work who have ADD, and that it really would be worth finding out if I have it. She suspects I do.

I did an online survey and it said that although it was no definitive diagnosis, that the score I got put me in the 'likely to have severe ADD' category. God, this would be kind of a relief actually. To have an answer. A way to deal with it.

It's like my mind is a massive library with all these books, but all the books are open, and I see the way every book relates to another book. I tell stories that branch into new stories, threads running through my mind like a tangle in a sewing box. But be patient. I will tell them all. You may be getting tired, but I will tell them all. If I forget today, I may remember tomorrow, and I'll just keep going.

So I've done a little bit of research, and there are some facts about ADD I hadn't realised, such as as 'hyperfocus' being a symptom. I didn't think I could really have it because I can actually focus on one thing for hours if it really interests me. I can read all day. Literally. I can stare at crabs during low tide for an hour or more. I could write this blog everyday, but you might tire of it.

What that means is that people can see the person with ADD being 'disciplined' when something is interesting to them, and they wonder why they can't apply that to other things. Like being tidy. I don't get it either. I wish I could focus on everything. As you can see, I'm definitely leaning towards the ADD camp, the descriptions are just too familiar. The tangled wires in my head are smoothed out when I focus on one thing I'm good at, weather it's writing, or watching something. I often notice things other people don't; I will see the small skink as we walk through the bush, I will catch hawks circling with my flying eyes.

So this is something I'm going to be looking into. ADD and Me. Ha, a book in waiting?

Whatever the case, I'm really grateful to Caroline for suggesting I look into it.

Wish me luck ducks!

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